Week 7

My 35th birthday today. It's all a bit grim. I am still poorly, so any celebrating has had to be put on hold. I did manage to make it for lunch with Mum (& Stefan) at the Red Cow up the road, and we had a bit of a potter around town to get me some new shoes. It really tired me out though and by 4pm I was suffering. I've been back to the Doctor and he's given me some pain killers. He can't prescribe too much because of the pregnancy. The antibiotics don't seem to be having any effect. I've only got one more day of tablets left and I feel no better.

Pregnancy is going ok. I'm feeling lots of symptoms - morning sickness (the retching is the worst, and it's not confined to the morning either. I get it throughout the day and night in intervals) I have bouts of achy boobs, I'm tired ALL the time and a I have really strong sense of smell. Some smells make me feel sick.

I'm still off work.

Week 6

Am still so poorly. It's my second week off work and Stefan has either been at nursery or at his Grandparents as I just cannot give him the attention he needs. I can't get out of bed, and I just cannot seem to shake this virus. I've been to the Doctor's and I now have a chest and throat infection, on top of a cold. I've lost my voice and it hurts so much to swallow or talk. My cough is very loose on my chest and I have a 'growl' when I breathe, which makes me cough more, which gives me a headache and makes my throat sting. It's been keeping me awake during the night. I'm really tired. I've been given some antibiotics.

I have been suffering with morning sickness, a really horrible sea sick feeling or like I've been sat in the back of a warm car reading. I've not been feeling good at all with one thing or another. I am relieved that I have a recognisable pregnancy symptom, a definite progression into week 6, and I'm seeing this is a sign of a strong pregnancy. Am resting all the time. I haven't got any energy in me to do anything. I feel so weak and tired. I can't wait to feel better.

Week 5

We've been trying for another baby for the past 5 months. We actually fell pregnant in February 2007 when Stefan was 9 months old, but I miscarried in March at 6 weeks. Devastating. Something you have to experience to fully understand the emotional trauma. I would never have believed it would happen again. Now, 5 months on, I'm pregnant again, and we are over the moon. We are taking tiny, careful steps as we are still scarred.

The previous two days.........

I've spent the day with Freda - baby group this morning, dinner at hers with her boys, then we spent the afternoon playing in the garden after Stefan's afternoon nap. I've felt fine most of the day, but I have recently been having spells of feeling lightheaded, slightly queasy and had bouts of tender boobs. Two weeks ago I would have put money on my period showing up again this month. I'd been having lower tummy aches and was really tearful and down. Then - nothing. For a whole week, I felt nothing. It was then I was starting to wonder if I was actually pregnant. I'd gone from 100% definitely not pregnant, to 50-50, not sure.

I made a couple of comments at Freda's about being able to smell poo. We'd checked the boys, and nobody else could smell anything. When Freda went outside, she realised the poo smell was coming from a nearby farmer 'mucking out' and that was what I could smell.
She reckoned I'd got a heightened sense of smell due to being pregnant.

I had decided not to do a pregnancy test. I felt that I was protecting myself from disappointment, and if I just waited then eventually I'd know anyway. But, Darren convinced me to take one and the positive result showed up within seconds - with a very strong pink line.




SATURDAY, 15th SEPTEMBER 2007

Woke up this morning feeling rotten. I've got the worst cold virus in the world, ever, and of course I can't take anything for it to relieve the symptoms. My head feels like it is going to explode, my face hurts from being blocked up with mucus, my ears are itching on the inside, I can't breath easily and I'm feeling really miserable. No energy, can't stay up for long, but don't particularly want to stay in bed as breathing is too difficult. Darren has been out and bought me some lemons, and the pharmacist has told him I can use a bit of Olbas Oil if things get too difficult. Worryingly, I also have aches in my lower tummy, which I can't decide is cold virus related or not. I'm finding it difficult to recognise my pregnancy symptoms over the cold symptoms, and of course, I'm worried sick that something is going wrong.

I hope this cold clears up soon. I'm trying really hard not to think the worst.