Week 5

We've been trying for another baby for the past 5 months. We actually fell pregnant in February 2007 when Stefan was 9 months old, but I miscarried in March at 6 weeks. Devastating. Something you have to experience to fully understand the emotional trauma. I would never have believed it would happen again. Now, 5 months on, I'm pregnant again, and we are over the moon. We are taking tiny, careful steps as we are still scarred.

The previous two days.........

I've spent the day with Freda - baby group this morning, dinner at hers with her boys, then we spent the afternoon playing in the garden after Stefan's afternoon nap. I've felt fine most of the day, but I have recently been having spells of feeling lightheaded, slightly queasy and had bouts of tender boobs. Two weeks ago I would have put money on my period showing up again this month. I'd been having lower tummy aches and was really tearful and down. Then - nothing. For a whole week, I felt nothing. It was then I was starting to wonder if I was actually pregnant. I'd gone from 100% definitely not pregnant, to 50-50, not sure.

I made a couple of comments at Freda's about being able to smell poo. We'd checked the boys, and nobody else could smell anything. When Freda went outside, she realised the poo smell was coming from a nearby farmer 'mucking out' and that was what I could smell.
She reckoned I'd got a heightened sense of smell due to being pregnant.

I had decided not to do a pregnancy test. I felt that I was protecting myself from disappointment, and if I just waited then eventually I'd know anyway. But, Darren convinced me to take one and the positive result showed up within seconds - with a very strong pink line.




SATURDAY, 15th SEPTEMBER 2007

Woke up this morning feeling rotten. I've got the worst cold virus in the world, ever, and of course I can't take anything for it to relieve the symptoms. My head feels like it is going to explode, my face hurts from being blocked up with mucus, my ears are itching on the inside, I can't breath easily and I'm feeling really miserable. No energy, can't stay up for long, but don't particularly want to stay in bed as breathing is too difficult. Darren has been out and bought me some lemons, and the pharmacist has told him I can use a bit of Olbas Oil if things get too difficult. Worryingly, I also have aches in my lower tummy, which I can't decide is cold virus related or not. I'm finding it difficult to recognise my pregnancy symptoms over the cold symptoms, and of course, I'm worried sick that something is going wrong.

I hope this cold clears up soon. I'm trying really hard not to think the worst.