A better week emotionally, but a terrible week physically. My pelvis has been absolute agony. I can't sleep, I can't walk very far or for very long and I'm in pain most of the time. I've also got a stretching, burning pain across the top of my bump, just under my boobs. It feels like my bra is really, really tight. I have felt my mood lift a little this week and the black cloud has turned a paler shade of grey. Makes for much better days, and I'm sure Stefan has been happier too. It must have an effect on him.
Lots of big movement now, and I have a sore spot on the right where baby has kicked a lot. Sometimes I'm sure it gets a foot caught up in my rib cage. Driving is becoming more difficult now as I have to move the seat back to fit my tummy in but then my feet are further away from the peddles. Can be a problem when I need to go somewhere that isn't walkable. Darren does all of the driving now, and all of my knuckles are permanently white!!
Stefan has been to the doctor this week with a few things. We've noticed he's blinking very slowly at times, which was a bit of a worry. We've just got to keep an eye on him and look out for certain behaviour, although we're not as worried now we've spoken to Doctor Yakoob. He's also got a little bit of a cough and with the stuff in the news about medicines being taken off the shelves, I thought I'd better get it checked out (he's ok) and he's got a prescription for his dry skin on his face and arms and legs. The dry, sore face we've put down to teething. He's having good and bad days with it.
We've done lots of sorting out of baby stuff. Darren got in the loft and we've got loads of stuff we can use again. It was so lovely to see the teeny tiny baby grows and vests again. I'd forgotten just how small newborns are and it made me realise how quickly Stefan has grown. Where has the time gone? We've found the moses basket and baby bath and loads of blankets and cot sheets etc. There's also a big bag of toys, which Stefan decided he wanted again!
We've had a really productive Easter break, and it's been good to have Stefan in the nursery for a couple of days where we can both get things done inbetween spending some time relaxing - which is a rarity these days!
Friday, 28 March 2008
Friday, 21 March 2008
Week 32
Much the same as my last entry really. No real change, just bigger! Some days I feel really bloated and uncomfortable - not sure if that is the amount of amniotic fluid or the fact that there's not much room left inside for food or drinks. I am trying to eat little and often and have smaller portions.
I am going through a very sensitive patch where I feel really undervalued and at times get quite agitated - and this gets me down. Being with constant aches and pains and not sleeping too well only adds to my frustrations. There have been quite a few arguments over the past few weeks and I am starting to worry about how unstable things feel at home. It's a horrible time, I feel really unhappy about it. Being pregnant is a toll on every aspect of my physical and emotional being and I am feeling it much more acutely than I did with Stefan. Because of this I have to rely heavily on those around me to help, and I feel distraught (heightened or not) when I am let down - however minor it seems to everyone else. Things seem really out of perspective in our relationship. We are both pretty upset about the whole thing.
I am going through a very sensitive patch where I feel really undervalued and at times get quite agitated - and this gets me down. Being with constant aches and pains and not sleeping too well only adds to my frustrations. There have been quite a few arguments over the past few weeks and I am starting to worry about how unstable things feel at home. It's a horrible time, I feel really unhappy about it. Being pregnant is a toll on every aspect of my physical and emotional being and I am feeling it much more acutely than I did with Stefan. Because of this I have to rely heavily on those around me to help, and I feel distraught (heightened or not) when I am let down - however minor it seems to everyone else. Things seem really out of perspective in our relationship. We are both pretty upset about the whole thing.
Friday, 7 March 2008
Week 30
It's been a good while (6 weeks infact) since I've written about my progress. Stefan, work and running the home is taking up all my time and I'm in bed really early these days.
Over the past few weeks, I have blossomed and I seem to be looking and feeling better, although I am still tired out at the end of the day. I'm still going through stages of irritability and extreme emotions - very tearful, very happy, very sensitive, etc.
I have a bit more energy which does dwindle by the end of the day as it's becoming a struggle to bend, lift and generally move about with any great urgency.
I'm getting lots of movement from the baby now, more so in the evening and throughout the night. Very reassuring. Some of the kicks are quite a shock when I least expect them.
The PSD is still there and I mainly feel it in the evening when I have been on my feet all day. It's can be painful when I am lying down in bed and turning over isn't easy either. Darren is still in the spare room, and as much as we both dislike it, it does enable us both to sleep better. Sleep deprivation is no good for either of us.
Over the past few weeks we've decorated the front bedroom for Stefan; got a new wardrobe and drawers for him, I've made curtains and tied it all together with matching accessories (bedding, rug, lampshades, bunting etc) and he's got a gorgeous bedroom now. We've got him a single bed in there, but he is still in his cot. At 21 months I feel it's still too early to move him out of it just yet. I'm also very conscious of keeping things as normal as possible for him while he gets used to his new sibling being around for the first few months. A colleague at work has offered us the use of a cot if we need it, although the baby will be in the moses basket for a little while and we do have a travel cot that we could use too for a short time.
Stefan has had a particularly tough time teething and he's been in a lot of pain over the past 4 weeks. Calpol is the only thing that calms him down and takes his pain away. Its awful to see him so distressed. He's been very clingy and has needed lots of cuddles and contact with me. He's coming through it now, but we have all had a rather hard time with it. He's been very tearful and very testing and hasn't been an easy child to deal with at times. Coupled with me being so exhausted and in pain with my pelvis and back I've not been able to lift him, or bend easily I've found it hard at times. Sometimes ending up in tears myself.
On Wednesday I saw the midwife. There's a small concern that I'm carrying too much amniotic fluid. I have been feeling quite bloated on occasion, which I have just put down to drinking too much milk/water or eating too late the night before. She didn't seem overly concerned, so I am trying not to worry about it. She's seeing me again in 3 weeks to have another look and then send me to a consultant if needed. I've not been leaking any fluid at all, which I presume would be the first sign of fluid overload.
She also spoke to me about my decision to have a section. I'm still no clearer. If I think long and hard enough I do think I will have one in the end. I'm just letting things happen as they will for now. I know I have the day booked at the end of the day.
The other thing I noticed this week (and I'm probably tempting fate now) is that I haven't got swollen feet or ankles. This time in my first pregnancy I had quite a lot of fluid in my legs at this point. Maybe I've got it all to come?
Only 8 weeks to go now, so I'm on the home stretch. HURRAY!
Over the past few weeks, I have blossomed and I seem to be looking and feeling better, although I am still tired out at the end of the day. I'm still going through stages of irritability and extreme emotions - very tearful, very happy, very sensitive, etc.
I have a bit more energy which does dwindle by the end of the day as it's becoming a struggle to bend, lift and generally move about with any great urgency.
I'm getting lots of movement from the baby now, more so in the evening and throughout the night. Very reassuring. Some of the kicks are quite a shock when I least expect them.
The PSD is still there and I mainly feel it in the evening when I have been on my feet all day. It's can be painful when I am lying down in bed and turning over isn't easy either. Darren is still in the spare room, and as much as we both dislike it, it does enable us both to sleep better. Sleep deprivation is no good for either of us.
Over the past few weeks we've decorated the front bedroom for Stefan; got a new wardrobe and drawers for him, I've made curtains and tied it all together with matching accessories (bedding, rug, lampshades, bunting etc) and he's got a gorgeous bedroom now. We've got him a single bed in there, but he is still in his cot. At 21 months I feel it's still too early to move him out of it just yet. I'm also very conscious of keeping things as normal as possible for him while he gets used to his new sibling being around for the first few months. A colleague at work has offered us the use of a cot if we need it, although the baby will be in the moses basket for a little while and we do have a travel cot that we could use too for a short time.
Stefan has had a particularly tough time teething and he's been in a lot of pain over the past 4 weeks. Calpol is the only thing that calms him down and takes his pain away. Its awful to see him so distressed. He's been very clingy and has needed lots of cuddles and contact with me. He's coming through it now, but we have all had a rather hard time with it. He's been very tearful and very testing and hasn't been an easy child to deal with at times. Coupled with me being so exhausted and in pain with my pelvis and back I've not been able to lift him, or bend easily I've found it hard at times. Sometimes ending up in tears myself.
On Wednesday I saw the midwife. There's a small concern that I'm carrying too much amniotic fluid. I have been feeling quite bloated on occasion, which I have just put down to drinking too much milk/water or eating too late the night before. She didn't seem overly concerned, so I am trying not to worry about it. She's seeing me again in 3 weeks to have another look and then send me to a consultant if needed. I've not been leaking any fluid at all, which I presume would be the first sign of fluid overload.
She also spoke to me about my decision to have a section. I'm still no clearer. If I think long and hard enough I do think I will have one in the end. I'm just letting things happen as they will for now. I know I have the day booked at the end of the day.
The other thing I noticed this week (and I'm probably tempting fate now) is that I haven't got swollen feet or ankles. This time in my first pregnancy I had quite a lot of fluid in my legs at this point. Maybe I've got it all to come?
Only 8 weeks to go now, so I'm on the home stretch. HURRAY!
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