Week 17

Feeling much better this week emotionally, but I can't believe that I've come down with yet another cold. Went to the Doctors on Monday with my sore throat (that has never really gone away since Week 6) that was starting to get worse. Especially at the end of the day. Now I've got the added bonus of a blocked up nose, itchy ears and dry, sore lips and no medication!

I've been finding it really hard to sleep. I'm am so exhausted, I really can't understand it. If I do fall asleep it's so shallow I've only been sleeping for one or two hours at a time. The last two nights I've been up walking about trying to break the 'non sleep' cycle and have also been reading at 2am. Had loads of worky things on my mind that have seemed worse at night just when I'm dropping off to sleep.

Had quite a stressful start to Wednesday. Had an appointment with the midwife to get my Down's results at 8.45am. I woke up at 7am and couldn't believe that Stefan was still sound asleep. A first! He's normally the first awake at 6am. I had a leisurely shower and dried my hair and still had to wake him up at 7.30am. All was going well until Stefan decided he didn't want his porridge. It was too close to him drinking his 7oz of milk, and obviously wasn't hungry enough. Of course, trying to explain to an 18 month old that if he doesn't eat his breakfast now he'll go hungry until lunchtime, was proving to be impossible!

I decided to leave him looking over his porridge while I went to get dressed. I had 20 minutes to get Stefan to the nursery and myself to the surgery - before going to work. I came down to find no porridge left in the bowl, but all over Stefan, all over the table and floor and stuck all over his chair. Stripped him off, cleaned him up, changed his clothes, left everything in a pile to turn to cement for me to sort out after work and legged it out the door.

FROST!!! My car was so thick with ice I couldn't turn the key in door. Great. After I had defrosted the car and got Stefan in the back I had about 3 seconds to get to the surgery. No time to take Stefan to the nursery, so he came with me. By this time he was getting hungry and was becoming really grisly. After waiting for a few minutes in the waiting room it had turned into a full on cry. By the time the midwife called me in he was inconsolable. Had a very rushed meeting, and the midwife couldn't find the baby's heartbeat and I left feeling really flustered and a mixture of upset and worried.

I'd been having some lower tummy pains, like a dull ache, which I mentioned to the midwife, and she said it was quite normal about now to feel a bit achey as my tummy is stretching and growing and things are moving about. I'd also been leaking bits of fluid that I had no control over, which also seems to be normal.

The Down's test came out well, so I won't be having any private scans for that. I think she said it was 1 in 1,000, but I'm not sure. Was too distracted trying to console Stefan.